Over whelmed and disorientated

I thought that I had been dealing with the difference in the way I look these days. I can see in the mirror that I am not the same as I once was and I have been revelling in the changes in my body. Which makes my mood this evening very difficult for me to understand.

I went shopping today - all I needed was a pair of shoes and a couple of reasonably smart looking tops to wear at work when I return next week. I didn't want to be long and so I was going into the good old standby of Evans. I love their "comfort" range of shoes for work, they are smart and comfy, just right for standing on my feet all day and I thought I would be able to pick up a couple of tops whilst I was there.

So what happened? Well, first of all, I tried a couple of size 18 tops on and they were huge on me. Well that was quite nice, although not totally unexpected. However, I could only find 4 size 16 tops in the whole store and I didn't like any of them. Then, I tried on the shoes I liked and despite having brought a similar pair several times, today they were like boats. I knew my feet had gone down from a size 8 to a 7, but the width of my feet has shrunk considerably too!

All of that should be making me feel good about where I am, but all of a sudden I feel disorientated. I don't know what size I am (I guess I'll be different sizes in different shops), I don't know what size shoe to wear and most importantly, I don't know where to go to buy clothes. After so many years of just having one or two shops available to buy from, I now seem to have hundreds and I'm over-whelmed. I don't know what styles suit me. I'm worried about ending up dressing too young, but at the same time I don't want to dress too old.

My daughters think I'm making a mountain out of a molehill, but I really do feel quite emotional about it all. I came home with nothing at all, but I will need to go shopping again before next Thursday, so I need to come up with a way to deal with these emotions.

Does anyone have any wise words, or am I just being a bit of a drama queen?

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Sara said...

I don't think you're being a drama queen. I think 16 is a really akward size. Too big for most "regular" stores and too small for most "big size" stores. You're left feeling like you don't fit in anywhere... :/

But I'm sure the emotional response is just a phase and you'll actually enjoy shopping next time you go out.

Are any of your friends a size 16? Maybe they could help you out and give you tips?

Tina xx said...

I know exactly how you feel so your not alone !!
Although I'm so happy at my weight loss, I went shopping a couple of months ago, and having so many shops I could actually buy from, i found it a little scarey !! I came home with nothing that day. Went back a few days later and actually found some things. Give yourself a whole day where you can spend as much time as you like looking at everything. You will be able to try things on and find things that both suit you and fit you really well. Good luck with it xx

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